Father's Field
Song Info
Album 1000 Fires
Recorded 1994
Genre Trip hop
Length 5:41
Producer Babble
Writer(s) Traci Lords

"Father's Field is a song recorded by Traci Lords for her debut studio album 1000 Fires (1995). It was written by Traci Lords and produced by the electronic band Babble. In the song, she reveals her experience with rape when she was ten years old.

Writing and recordingEdit

Father's Field lyrics sheet

After Lords' record label Radioactive arranged her to fly to London in the spring of 1994, she met with the producer Tom Bailey who had just formed the electronic band Babble along with Alannah Curry and Keith Fernley. Together they recorded three songs: "I Want You," "Fly," and "Just Like Honey". The last one was later re-recorded by Fernley with a different set of lyrics and became the song "Father's Field". Lords used lyrics from her journal she had written in New Zealand in 1993 while filming The Tommyknockers. In her autobiography Traci Lords: Underneath It All, she wrote: "Listening to a new artist named Tori Amos, I became inspired by the candid stories she told in her lyrics. She sang about being raped, and I found myself writing about the same thing, filling notebooks with random thoughts from years before. I titled that section of words "Father's Field," although it had nothing to do with my father’s field. My father’s backyard brought such vivid images to my mind that that’s where my story character was placed."


I remember that day 'cause I was excited
No school, I'd been raking my father's field
Wearing this stupid little dress
Rocking out, raking it up, sort of sweating, feeling good

I was laying on the grass making big angels
I was feeling kinda itchy in the grass
Laying in the sun, kinda liking the way it felt
Guess I must have fallen asleep

I still don't know what woke me up
All I can remember seeing were these huge eyes
Staring over me, right on top of me
This older boy, out of my league
'Cause I was no cheerleader, I was no lipstick queen

I could feel his eyelashes on my face and they were tickling me
Maybe that's what woke me up, I was shocked
That sun was so hot and he was so warm
And I didn't know what it was but it felt kinda good

Just the way his fingers ran through my hair, just raking it up
I'd never had anyone touch me like that before except for my mother
I knew there was something wrong but I don't know I kinda liked it
It was sort of like, wow, like amazing

And he just kept whispering, "You're so beautiful
God, you're beautiful", just this sweet voice tickling me
Then I got kinda nervous and I got really embarrassed
I felt myself getting really hot, sort of blushing, heat hot

I tried to get up but he started to laugh
And he was sort of pulling me down, pinning me in to the ground
He's not playing a game, I hear this screaming and it's me
And I started to hear my clothes rip

And I got scared, really scared and in a way
I hoped to God no one would find us cause I was so embarrassed
I became silent, this is really wrong
It's all my fault, it's all my fault, it's all my fault

His hand over my mouth, that's why I'm not screaming
I didn't say anything, I didn't feel anything, I just drifted away
I just floated, just that sharp pain
And then he's through with me

I didn't tell anyone
Didn't tell anyone